It's lonely on this side

I saw this book and I am going to purchase it. You see the title itself I am sure not only speaks to me but to millions of others. I just finished a book by this author and it was awesome. Leslie speaks to me on my level and I praise God for her gift of writing. One day maybe I too can publish something.....
Let me explain to you why my title is the way it is..... You see, I am understanding as everyday passes, that when you decide to walk in excellence with the Lord, that it can be a pretty lonely walk. I know that the Lord is with me always as he was with Joseph in all his mess but I mean that it's lonely when your own family doesn't seem to be walking with you. Sure, everyone has a different level that they are that, but despite the difference in levels, there should be a common ground more than not. It's not fun feeling like the "outcast" but I know that it's for the greater good. I know that Jesus went through so much more than I will ever go through. I know that Jesus understands where my heart is at and why I feel so alone at times. Sure at times, I would love to have some drinks and lay back and "chill". Sure at times, I would love to watch some horror movies and just listen to comedy no matter how raunchy it can get. But the fact is, it grieves me when I even think about it and of course if I do it, I won't be very happy as well. I know it's God changing my appetite for the things of this world and I thank and praise God because I never thought that I would be at this place, EVER! But there are just some days, like today, that I feel like...... well.......alone. I know many understand where I am coming from and yet others may not. And it's cool. I just wanted to get this out. Now..... let me do my study. I'm tired and want to go to bed soon. Good night.