What is love? Can someone please tell me......

I was reading 1 Corinthians 13 today and it talks about love. You know love is this and love is that........ But when I got to the end of the chapter, I realized that above everything I read, love is a sacrificial decision. What do I mean? I mean that, in order to love someone, you must make the decision to not only love them by word but to also love them by deed and that takes a sacrifice. Sometimes it takes A LOT of sacrifices to show someone you love them. I have heard that there is a thin line between love and hate. And I believe that statement to be true. But where is the line between love and obsession? You know. The kind of person who wants to do things their way all the time but expects you to "understand" where they are coming from and still expect you to "take it". The kind of person who is willing to sacrifice part of the time just to shut you up and then go back to doing what they want to only bring you disappointment.

How can you show love to someone like that? Does it seem fair? It's not easy I tell you the truth. But if God calls us to love our neighbors and pray for our enemies, how could He not command us to love one another. The bible says that the world will know that I am His diciple in this, that I love my brother. WHEW! That is a tough and HUGE pill to swallow. But I know that since God has commanded me to do this, then He will equip me with the grace needed to accomplish this love task.

One of the hardest parts to "loving" someone is that they won't "love" you back. Yes, I know we all say to one another, "I love you!" but we surly don't show it. So, why do we say it? Is it cause it's a routine thing to do. You know, kiss eachother in the morning before you go to work and say "I love you" but never do anything else to show them how much you do love them. And then when it is brought up, they get offended. I have been through this WAY too many times and have heard it all, of this I am sure of.

That's why I am at a place right now that if I say I love someone, I try my best in showing them. But what I am not doing is expecting someone who says that they love me, to show me. Why you ask? Cause more times than not, they won't show it if I am looking for it but I will end up seeing it when I least expect it. And on the flip side of that, they will never really show it and I won't be disappointed because I wasn't looking for it anyway.

Love is complicated....... Isn't it??????

Finally!!!!!

It would have been 3 years this coming January that I have been unemployed. And finally the time has come where I am finally about to start a job. WOW! I can't tell you how I feel because I feel like a mixture of things. I am happy, worried, excited, anxious, etc. The greatest part of all of this is that, my job is at a daycare and all 3 of my kids will be paid for so the little that I will make, gets to come home with us.

PRAISE THE LORD!

God truly answered my prayers above and beyond what I asked for. I was willing to work a job even if all the funds went to pay for daycare. I just needed a "break". My husband doesn't understand but maybe one day he will. I am just so happy that I get to work and still have my kids around. And be able to get to them quickly if needed. I will be working full time and they will be attending full time. So we go in together and leave together. I am so happy. I am so ready to have adult conversations now, lol. I am ready to put my hand to something else. 3 years of being a stay at home mommy have been great, hard but great! And I am glad that now I can be a working mommy with my babies beside me as well.