How Can I Get Out Of This Place????

There comes a time when you can't pretend anymore. You can't put the "Everything is okay...." look on. You can't smile anymore. You can't frown anymore. You can't cry anymore. You just be. It's a place where no one can seem to help you get out of. And scarily, not even God seems to be there with you. You just feel like you exist there alone. Kind of like you are the only one on planet earth feeling. It's an ugly place to go. The one thing I can't help but think is.... How in the world did I even arrive here? You would think that I have tried everything that I know how to not get here yet here I stand, alone. I know what God says about not ever leaving but "Where are you Lord?" I can't pretend like I'm superwoman, or supermom or even superwife yet, EVERYONE expects me to be. Oh come on now, admit it.... You know that I am going through alot but because I come of so "strong" that you just know that I will get through this. You just know that I will overcome this "obstacle". You just know.... blah blah blah! Yeah I get it! Such hypocrisy! Let's be real......If I could re-do my life, of course I would make some major changes. And so would you. And if you said you wouldn't, you're a liar. Everyone wonders about the should'ves, could'ves and would'ves so don't make it seem like I'm the only one. The only difference is that I will tell it like it is. And you know it's true.